Been invited to one of my close friends 18th birthday party. She came to my house for a wee while and gave me the invitation. She’s one of my friends from school and probably the one of a small group of people I still rate as a friend and have time for because the rest of my year were all fannies. She’s still friends with a lot of people who picked on me in Primary and who I fell out with in 5th year. So if I was to go I would be in a party filled with people who hate me and talk about me still. Just the thought of it makes me feel panicky and sick to my stomach. Don’t want to not go but I don’t know if I can. I have a guest so I will probably take Lindsay, I would take my two best friends but I only have one night guest, plus she knows everyone going so she might be able to calm me down. But eughhhhhh I really don’t know! It’s not until September so I have time to think.